- A Million Little Pieces, James Frey” —
-Charles M. Schulz” —
- Brady: We were good friends once. I was always glad of your support. What happened between us? There used to be a mutuality of understanding and admiration. Why is it, my old friend, that you have moved so far away from me?
- (A pause. They study eachother.)
- Drummond: (slowly) All motion is relative. Perhaps it is you who have moved away--by standing still.
“I’m actually not absolutely certain that my story is life-changing or earth-shattering, but I know that the words are collecting at the tips of my fingers and that if I don’t shake them out over the keyboard they could go backwards and form word clots around my heart. Word clots are worse than blood clots — because blood clots more or less kill you as soon as they reach a vital area in your body, but word clots just stay, occasionally giving you heartburn with all the things you could have said but didn’t.”
I always wondered why certain people/things/situations can trigger off heartburn. I hate it. You worry if you just got too upset emotionally and affected your physical being in some way.
12:47AM I’m so exhausted. And i’m not in the right state of mind for anything. I honestly wish to quit my job and just do nothing for the time being… I hate the whole idea of Cause and Effect. I hate aftermaths. I hate consequences. I wish life can just be lived by on decisions made on the whim, without second thoughts, hesitations, regrets. However we wouldn’t want to end up as selfish assholes who eventually fuck their whole lives up on decisions made on impulse. But once in awhile, it’ll be nice to just not think so much, to live for the moment and not think so far as in how something you want to do now would affect your life 10, 20 years later. I’d appreciate everything I have now, if I didn’t have anything to compare to - e.g. a past, or an ideal future. Right? Right. I think I need sleep. Rambling. Not making sense. Thinking too much. Worrying too much. Sleep. Need. Sleep.