October 2009
“When you truly trust someone you care about, you don’t have to wonder if they love you as much as you love them.”
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“No one deserves to be treated that way. So even if you love him with your entire heart, with every fiber of your being, with so much passion that it hurts to think about it, you need to forget what you want and remember what you deserve.”
—(via poeticheartache)
“Out of all the things I look forward to in life to doing with you is sleeping, not making love although I always look forward to that too but even more so just sleeping in the same bed you holding me in your arms & me falling asleep on your chest, waking up with you right next to me. That’s what I want; that’s what I look forward to.”
—(via poeticheartache)
“I can’t help but think of the past. What happened to make things the way they are now? My mind drifts so very often and I can’t escape this feeling. I just want to scream out to you and tell you what’s on my mind, but I won’t because you never told me what was going through your mind way back then.”
—(via poeticheartache)
“I can’t be with someone who has doubts, no matter how small they are. I need someone who wants to be with me as much as I want to be with them. I don’t want just part of your heart, I want all of it, and you can’t promise me that.”
—(via eletheowl)
“Missing you gets easier everyday even though it’s one day longer since the last time i saw you it’s one day closer to the next time i will.”
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“This is how it has always been with me. Give me something good, I’ll destroy it. Love me, I’ll destroy you. I have never felt deserving of anything in my life. I have never felt as if I were worth the diseased space I occupy. This feeling has inhabited everything I’ve ever done, seen or had anything to do with, and it has infected every relationship I have ever had with everyone I’ve ever known. I don’t understand it. I don’t understand why it’s here. I hate it as I hate myself…”
- A Million Little Pieces, James Frey” —
- A Million Little Pieces, James Frey” —
“Why can’t we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn’t work. Someone would leave. Someone always leaves. Then we would have to say good-bye. I hate good-byes. I know what I need. I need more hellos.
-Charles M. Schulz” —
-Charles M. Schulz” —
- Brady: We were good friends once. I was always glad of your support. What happened between us? There used to be a mutuality of understanding and admiration. Why is it, my old friend, that you have moved so far away from me?
- (A pause. They study eachother.)
- Drummond: (slowly) All motion is relative. Perhaps it is you who have moved away--by standing still.
“I’m actually not absolutely certain that my story is life-changing or earth-shattering, but I know that the words are collecting at the tips of my fingers and that if I don’t shake them out over the keyboard they could go backwards and form word clots around my heart. Word clots are worse than blood clots — because blood clots more or less kill you as soon as they reach a vital area in your body, but word clots just stay, occasionally giving you heartburn with all the things you could have said but didn’t.”
I always wondered why certain people/things/situations can trigger off heartburn. I hate it. You worry if you just got too upset emotionally and affected your physical being in some way.
12:47AM I’m so exhausted. And i’m not in the right state of mind for anything. I honestly wish to quit my job and just do nothing for the time being… I hate the whole idea of Cause and Effect. I hate aftermaths. I hate consequences. I wish life can just be lived by on decisions made on the whim, without second thoughts, hesitations, regrets. However we wouldn’t want to end up as selfish assholes who eventually fuck their whole lives up on decisions made on impulse. But once in awhile, it’ll be nice to just not think so much, to live for the moment and not think so far as in how something you want to do now would affect your life 10, 20 years later. I’d appreciate everything I have now, if I didn’t have anything to compare to - e.g. a past, or an ideal future. Right? Right. I think I need sleep. Rambling. Not making sense. Thinking too much. Worrying too much. Sleep. Need. Sleep.
One of the worst feelings in the world is having to doubt something you thought was unquestionable.
“You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.”
— Bob Marley
